I’m tired. I’m so tired it’s making me feel older. I feel totally worn out. I don’t get enough sleep. I’m lucky if I get six hours, and usually much less than that. At 52 years old, that’s just not enough.
I’m up all night and I’m sleeping through the day. My schedule is totally not in sync with Scott’s and that’s not good for relationships. I’m lucky he puts up with it.
I get cold at night and can’t go to sleep. Some of it is also probably the 14 pills I have to take every day now for medication. When I do finally hit the sack, I start playing solitaire on my Amazon Kindle and still can’t go to sleep for hours.
My little blue Zoloft pills seem to make things not matter as much, but this is getting out of control. Today, for example. Scott was off for one of 11 remaining vacation days. He’ll be off Monday again too. He’s trying to make long weekends until he’s run out of vacation for the year. Use it or lose it!
I was up until after 3pm as usual. Too tired to make it up the stairs to bed, I decided to just sleep in my recliner. Not a good idea! Now my neck hurts. I didn’t get up until after 9 pm, so we didn’t eat dinner until about 10 pm. That’s way too late to be eating! Thank goodness it’s pay day. We always treat ourselves to Chinese take-out. I was only half-awake and could only eat half my meal.
We watched a couple of TV shows, but I started dozing through the second one. Then I fell asleep again while Scott played games on his computer. When I finally woke up at 1 am, he’s in bed of course.
Seriously, this past week I’ve been up until 3 pm in the afternoon and will sleep until 7 or 9 pm if I’m lucky. I’m finding it to be a horrible cycle to be stuck in. Scott generally goes to bed at 10 pm and wakes up at 7 am for work. Sometimes he’s able to sleep in until 8 or 10 am on days off. I try to be quiet and not do anything noisy when he’s in bed by himself. I’m starting to feel like a vampire or zombie and not awake during the day like normal people. It takes me forever to wake up and feel like doing something productive.
Lately I start drinking my pot coffee at midnight or later, and usually drink tea the rest of the time. Iced black & green tea in warmer weather and hot tea when I’m cold. I’ll usually have one Pepsi Max with dinner. All of these have caffeine, but I believe the antioxidants and tannins in the teas are good for me. Still, it’s no wonder I have problems sleeping!
I’m too busy trying to keep up with the plethora of giveaways. I can’t even find time to open packages or use the prizes I’m winning. Honestly, I’m surrounded by boxes and it’s getting embarrassing. Most importantly, I can’t comment to say I’ve received a prize if I haven’t opened it. It’s simply bad manners and in poor taste not to. So I’m feeling guilty about that too.
I will be deleting lots of giveaway feed posts. Less entries, less wins, but I think I can live with that. I expect my next wins posts will have far less to show you. Honestly, I have been winning so much for so long that it doesn’t really matter to me if I don’t win much anymore. It’s just more for others to win and that’s not a bad thing
It will be very hard for me, but I’m going to try to only enter for prizes that I really, REALLY want to win. Not just really, but totally. My goal will be to use and organize what I have first before adding anything else to this mêlée. We can always use food and gift cards, but I don’t need beauty products or jewelry. My cabinets are already too crowded and I never wear jewelry anymore anyways. It’s just shiny, sparkling, and seductive.
Rafflecopter has made entering blog giveaways so much easier and less time-consuming. It’s the number of giveaways I’m trying to win that’s the problem. That number will go way, way down. I will go through my currently bookmarked daily tweets one more time and move those to a giveaway folder that isn’t revisited until the expiration dates.
I haven’t entered sweepstakes regularly for more than a month. I’d like to get back to that. One day I hope to find balance. I don’t expect to enter many daily sweepstakes except for really big ones, but weekly and monthly entries don’t take much time when I make myself do it. They’re even on my Remember The Milk task list, but don’t get checked off often enough. Neither do lots of other items.
I especially like entering one-time entry sweepstakes. You enter once and you’re done! They’re very hard to win, but everyone’s chances of winning are just the same.
There are too many things I’m not doing and should be. I’ve gotten used to living in a dirty house. That’s just sick!
Here are the biggest reasons I need to get more sleep:
I already have diabetes, heart disease, high cholesterol, and hypertension. I’m a cardiac patient and walking time bomb! I usually record my blood pressure every day and haven’t in weeks now. The same goes for our evening walk. Walking is the only exercise my cardiologist has authorized because of the severity of my heart condition. He’s trying to prevent another major heart attack and has restricted beef and desserts from my diet, among other foods. I’m having a hard time following those two instructions.
Enough for now. I’ve probably been rambling, but needed to write this down while it’s on my mind.